As you can see from the balance I'm 40 points down but this loss doesn't reflect just how well I traded this week. Sure there were odd trades that I missed (hesitated on) and there was one time I closed a trade and it's add, early, due to emotion. I FOMO'd into a trade which in hindsight was a desperate attempt to get back the prior loss. But, despite those little misteps, and they were, not like previous weeks, isolated incidents, for the most part of this week I traded as well as I have ever traded.
I FTS (Flipped the Switch) on every trade when I was stopped out of my original position. I added to trades. I took every signal my strategy gave. I exited using my exit strategy. I stayed in trades despite my feelings telling me to close and book the profit. I did it all. The only thing I didn't do which I regret, and in all honesty would've taken some serious mental agility, which I think with experience I can cultivate, was to FTS on an ADD. Other than that despite the loss, I am so f**king happy with how I traded this week. It made me think back to how I 'used' to trade, and demonstrated to me just how far I've come and how much my trading has evolved.
The only one true question I had of myself was my ability to actaully believe it when I say - 'My job when I trade is to make points, but I have to remember, I don't have to make all the points.' If I can get to the point in my trading where I can close a trade earlier than my strategy dictates, or scalp because I believe at the time the market is in a trading range, and be happy with the results even if I leave points on the table, then I will truly be the trader I always knew and know I can be. That for me now is the hardest part of trading. It's not FTS or booking a losing trade/ day/ week. It's being okay with leaving points in the market and acknowledging that my closes don't have to be, and can in reality never be, perfect. It's knowing that I was in a trade and closed it early, only to then watch it move off without me. That's the hardest part of trading for me now. Get that down and honestly, I feel like I'll be unstoppable. Nothing will stop me from progressing and ending up where I desire to be. Trading professionally for myself.
Living the dream.
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