Feels good. Feels really good actually to be back trading. It helps I had a great two days of course, but that aside, how I actually felt whilst trading was amazing.
Calm. Centred. Focussed. Patient.
All of the things I thought I was before, but in hindsight, I realise I was not. In two days I took two trades, and one of them, when reviewed was not great in terms of signals, but if I saw that price action again, I would take the trade again, so it wasn't in essence a bad trade.
Nothing was forced, like it used to be. On the Friday I took just one trade. I got stopped out very quickly for a small loss, and then I just sat. And waited. And I waited. And then I waited some more for a signal to arise, but nothing happened. So at 10:00am I logged out and went to the gym. No revenge trading. No trying to just get back to even on the day. No 'if onlys...'. No regret. No nothing. I just traded my time, accepted the outcome, and moved on with my day. This is how trading should be. In fact, this is how life should be. You take action, the outcome is the natural outcome, and then you move on to the next part of your day, unfazed and unaffected, simply enjoying the present moment with no thought or concern for anything at all, past or future. If you can do this, and do it consistently, in all aspects of your life, then life will seem so easy, it will flow, and you and your thoughts will flow with it.
I am truly grateful that I didn't quit. I didn't let it beat me. Instead, I stopped, I took some time away, and in that time I made some much needed changes, not to my trading, but to myself, and as a result I've come back with a renewed desire to succeed, but more importantly a disconnection with the when and the how of that success.
All I need to know is that success is inevitable, and it will happen exactly when it is meant to.
For now, I am just enjoying the process and the journey. One day and one trade at a time.
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