Although it's a minus week, four whole points, it was a very very good week in terms of patience, focus, and discipline. The only slight slip was on Friday when I took almost as many trades in one morning as I had for the entire week.
It felt good. Really good. To simply sit and actually patiently wait for signals instead of trying to force trades which basically weren't there. In fact for each of the prior days Monday through Wednesday I only took one trade each day and was 27 points to the good. But then on Thursday I took three trades and although one felt possibly forced, the other two were only losers due to slippage (2 and 1 points respectively). Friday I took a good signal but it lacked followthrough and then I took another couple of trades which I maybe shouldn't have taken and I closed the last one manually as I knew it was revengy.
But on the whole, it was a great week back considering it was only my second week.
Sometimes we get caught up in the how of things and so then subconsciously we place too much emphasis on how and so we begin to unconsciously force things, we try and bend things to accommodate for this lack of knowing. It is in these moments that we can undo all of the good we have done up until then, not only financially but more importantly, mentally. However, as we begin to acknowledge when we are doing this, and our awareness increases, as a result over time, this awareness becomes quicker and quicker to the point that as soon as we think about the how and we think about forcing something, our awareness (new neural pathways/ synaptic connections) has made us react with such speed we don't actually act at all. It merely passes as a thought, without an action. This is how I felt like I was functioning at the beginning of the week.
It feels like I have made true, lasting progress for sure, but, only time will tell, however, even as I wrote that last phrase, I feel honestly, inside me, that I know it is not a matter of time.....but instead it is a matter of fact.
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